Maya

My cell phone was survived with 4 missed calls and was still blinking and vibrating when I came back to room. Yes, I am not a phone friendly person. Gadgets and gizmos are just fixed assests for me, will never be my priorities. I know when some of my friends read this, they will say "एट लिस्ट आफ्नो बानि थाहा रहेछ केटीलाई" :) This year's Dashain was very quiet and subtle, I was appreciating some other parts of the globe then and when I realized it was too late. Never mind, there's always a next time :) I have been putting aside so many works since a long time, procrastination is now a MANTRA. Still deep inside गजबको फुर्ती छ, अक्टोबरभरिमा भ्याँउछु भनेर, I really don't understand my vaccuum strengths sometimes. All weekdays are not same, five days I am in the pig pens, appreciating the filths, noises and snouts of the pigs. म सँगै दुईजना फ्रेन्च केटाकेटी पनि काम गर्छन्, सुङुर भनेपछि ज्यान नै फाल्छन, खोइ के हो? I think genes has a lot to do in this area. जानेका ...

Innocent ripples in those eyes Constantly invites me to dive Clouds curl around the misty air Give many curves in the face so live Every effort went in vain To oust you and hate you insane But Emotions pent up high n high Getting my pride above the lane

Like a lunatic in an asylum those grey clouds growled hard wanting to be free almost and spreading all over till emptied Bells chanted the holy slogans far across the steep hills Autumn whispers the earth swiftly "Look dear, who's arriving here" Donned in all green and red maiden earth cared to see up finds her beloved coming she swings and flows in a misty air God's grandeur they say my friend when earth sublimes with the rain so divine muddy aura mixes within this air I feel the holiness filling my soul With the earth and the sky together angels demand a celebration herw comes thou wish heaven declares Festive season everywhere, Dashain everywhere.............

In the right nothing seems to be left  In the left nothing seems to be right  I'm stuck in between hope n despair  Waitin' for a moment when I can cheer  Air refuses to pass my way  Water doesn't dare to flow  My life's been crippled Everything seems blurry n mess Smiles are my foes Tears are my frens Days are arid n barren No signs of monsoon rains I try to make sense Out of my gloomy life  But the deeper I go I find the never ending sigh the never ending sigh!!!!